Since I’ve been on hiatus, I felt it necessary to give you all a little update on what’s been happening in my life before fully diving back into the blogging world.
Last you all heard I was on my way to becoming a teacher, that is no longer the case anymore. Unfortunately I did not qualify to get my Certificate of Eligibility and I’m sorry but, I have no interest in returning to school, that chapter is closed permanently. So on to the next adventure! I am now working for a home mortgage company as a Loan Processor with one of my cousins! It seems to be the perfect fit for me, it gives me so much freedom to still have a life and be involved with my family and I actually love learning about all the processes and the industry itself. I told myself I would stick with this industry for the long run because I am extra tired of the job hunting. But the good thing about this job is that I love it and I can make this into a great career for myself and it still lets me appreciate my inner values of being with my family while still working towards my future goals !
As you all know, I lost my brother back in January. It has been a roller coaster of emotions, with its fair share of ups and downs. At first the family was all united but somewhere deep down I knew that wouldn’t last long. Some members have gone their separate ways, others I just needed to separate myself from the negativity for a while in order to help myself properly heal. I don’t think it’s selfish to make yourself the priority in your own life, especially when it comes to dealing with the grief of a close immediate family member. All I can do now is pray for them and love them from afar.
I’ve been on my own path, surrounding myself with like-minded people. Focusing on my goals and making sure that I appreciate every moment given to me. I make sure I’m extremely involved in my family and that I am creating memories with each and every person. Because honestly, the only thing that’s left behind when you’re gone, the memories you’ve shared and the love that was given.
My Current State of Mind
I’ve just been focusing on the here and now. I think of my brother literally all the time and I make sure I do my best to keep his memory alive. I’m making a scrapbook of him that’s very in detail of all our memories that we shared together. I spend pretty much all of my time with Maelyn and make sure she and Madison know they are loved and supported. I live life as if it were my last day, I have more sleepovers with my friends/family. I go to watch the sunrise at least once a month, I plan spontaneous trips to travel and to experience new things and I always tell my people that I love them. I also started CrossFit because I’m tired of waiting “to start tomorrow”, I want to be happy with myself both physically and mentally and it has been a great experience so far and I feel so much stronger and happier with myself.
Manny has truly taught me the meaning of “life is too short”, you hear it all the time and still believe that you are the exception. But no one is safe from time, it keeps going even when you don’t. So I try my best to enjoy all the little things and all the people who support and love me, the people that create my own personal safe haven from all the drama and distress in today’s world. I always do what I think is right in my heart and I always do what’s best for my mental health and well-being in the end. My motives are always aiming towards a more positive life, no drama just love and peace. I’m exactly the person I believe myself to be and I will keep being that person.
My Plans and The Blog
So my current plans for my future, which change often, are as follows. I plan to grow within my company and become a Loan Officer, something that’s already been in the works training wise and I’m so lucky to be in a company that believes in me and wants to see my succeed. I plan to continue being extremely involved with all my family members and I plan to continue furthering my knowledge by reading books and going to church and just experiencing things in life and truly living, not just letting time pass. I plan to keep going strong and make the vision that I have for myself and my family a reality. Whatever it takes.
This post is my official reactivation of the blog. I plan to only post weekly, because daily ended up feeling like a chore. Although the main focus of my blog is positivity I plan to incorporate more of my life and personal experiences into it, in hopes that I can make it more personable and relatable. I plan to stay consistent now that I am better adjusted to my new life and the new family additions and losses and I hope I can make a difference in someone’s life by speaking from the heart always.