Whenever I am by myself and just sitting with my personality and my problems and really picking everything apart, I feel like I discover a few hidden gems in this big head of mine. I notice things that I don’t particularly like about myself and catch myself when I am acting in that way to try to correct the behavior. I notice things around me that just don’t make sense to me and literally just make my mind boggle. I think of how things were and because of that, how things are now. I pretty much am just having full on conversations with myself on the regular.
But honestly, I think those are the best moments. When you are all alone with your thoughts, just you and more you. It really makes me appreciate life more, it helps me to have a better understanding of things, find a deeper meaning behind people, actions and things. I am not one to react to any situation in the spur of the moment, I always like to gather my thoughts on the subject before sending out my rebuttal. Maybe I was in the wrong and I try to see things from the other person’s perspective, I try to get in their headspace. Or maybe I am just thinking about why I am the way I am and all that’s lead up to me being this way. I even think about the ‘would’ve, could’ve, should’ve’ scenarios, but I try not to dwell on anything I can’t change.
I am always trying to better myself each and every day because this is not an overnight process. This is a daily choice I have to make and sometimes I make mistakes and fail and feel shitty about it. But all we can do is learn from our mistakes and keep moving forward. No point in torturing yourself with what you cannot change. You won’t be happy unless you decide to be happy, for some reason people like to associate happiness with a person, a place or an object. But once that person is gone, the place has been seen or that object obtained, then what’s left? Happiness is way of being, a choice that has to be made every single day. There is no “right time” or “perfect place” to wipe away all your struggles, no sense in waiting for things to happen before you can be “happy”. There is no better time and place to choose to be happy then right here and now. It’s always going to be you versus the world or you versus you. You versus whatever the world throws at you, which will be a shit ton, or whatever you choose to focus on and make better for yourself.
I’ll take my chances with the YOU vs YOU.